I began to recognize the Spirit of God echoing the message of patience and providing peace. Gospel understanding began to unfold in my ponderings of scripture and what was changing inside me. When it came to spiritual things, I found God's pleasure in listening to and understanding myself rather than judging and condemning. As a result, how I approached the gospel began to change.
I really don't have a picturesque life. I have hurt, I have hidden, I have hungered for closeness, and I have kept people self-destructively at a distance.