So, just to keep the simplest things simple. There was a concern someone brought up to me that I'd like to address: I'm not interested in gathering a following of any kind. If I am right, which I have been assured on enough occasions I am not, then we simply need to learn to engage [...]
...it is amazing to me how radical and rebellious I can feel just by putting scripture side by side with our history, statements from our history, our traditions, and even some current attitudes and statements. Maybe I am just self-conscious... I am in the right place - in the right church - that can't accept its own imperfection, fallibility, or incompleteness. And God says: "Teach, Greg."
I am a child of God. Whose Life has brought me tears. I’ve tried so hard to do what’s right; It’s hurt through all these years. There’s joy, it’s here, I know it’s somewhere- Help me find the way. If I just learn to force myself, It will surely change someday.
I yield to desires of our people; being heard comes at great cost and with little benefit. As such, I won't be writing to be heard, I will be writing to study, remember, treasure, and develop myself in the blessings that the Lord has given me. I'll still write, but writing for others and myself is like trying to serve two masters - it can't be done.
I began to recognize the Spirit of God echoing the message of patience and providing peace. Gospel understanding began to unfold in my ponderings of scripture and what was changing inside me. When it came to spiritual things, I found God's pleasure in listening to and understanding myself rather than judging and condemning. As a result, how I approached the gospel began to change.
I really don't have a picturesque life. I have hurt, I have hidden, I have hungered for closeness, and I have kept people self-destructively at a distance.