I am a Child of God: Another Verse

I am a child of God.
Whose Life has brought me tears.
I’ve tried so hard to do what’s right;
It’s hurt through all these years.

There’s joy, it’s here, I know it’s somewhere-
Help me find the way.
If I just learn to force myself,
It will surely change someday.

As I was struggling to come to terms with myself, I felt a lot of conflict.  On one hand, I’ve been taught my whole life that continuing to ‘white-knuckle-obey’ my way through life as being the right way to deal with my challenges.  On the other hand I was broken; I had done that all my life and it simply didn’t work.  No amount of any of that had served me, had lifted me up, had brought me peace that God had promised to those that love Him.  As such, I was feeling led to let go and trust in the mercy and power of Christ.  I had carried my burden as far as I could.
It was during this time that new lyrics came to my mind for a LDS song that I have known all of my life:  “I am a Child of God.”  Really it was appropriate.
This song has a history.  The focus was originally shifted from ‘knowing’ to ‘doing’ by recommendation of a Prophet to the writer of the song.  It changed the chorus to say “Teach me all that I must do to live with him someday”  while the original read “Teach me all that I must know to live with him some day.”
Really I believe there’s a balance to be struck and the verse that came to me just points out my personal cost for the imbalance.  There are things that come first in order and first in priority – I just don’t feel that behavior is one of them.
The song itself:

I am a Child of God, Lyrics

  1. I am a child of God,
    And he has sent me here,
    Has given me an earthly home

    With parents kind and dear.


    Chorus:
    Lead me, guide me, walk beside me,
    Help me find the way.
    Teach me all that I must do
    To live with him someday.

  2. I am a child of God,
    And so my needs are great;
    Help me to understand his words
    Before it grows too late.
    Chorus
  3. I am a child of God.
    Rich blessings are in store;
    If I but learn to do his will,
    I’ll live with him once more.
    Chorus
  4. I am a child of God.
    His promises are sure;
    Celestial glory shall be mine
    If I can but endure.
    Chorus

 

And that would be the song.

The verse that came to me also has its own separate words to follow the melody of the Chorus.  I honestly imagine it in place of verse four though I find them to be different angles of the same story.

  1. I am a child of God.
    Whose Life has brought me tears.
    I’ve tried so hard to do what’s right;
    It’s hurt through all these years.

    Chorus:
    There’s joy, it’s here, I know it’s somewhere-
    Help me find the way.
    If I just learn to force myself,
    It will surely change someday.
I think that tells that little story well, enough.

 

Reference.

I am a child of God.
Words:
Naomi Ward Randall, 1908–2001. © 1957 IRI. Fourth verse © 1978 IRI
Music: Mildred Tanner Pettit, 1895–1977. © 1957 IRI. Arr. by Darwin Wolford, b. 1936. Arr. © 1989 IRI

2 thoughts on “I am a Child of God: Another Verse

  1. Greg IFS (Internal Family Systems) Therapy has been one of the most powerful ways I have experienced joy and healing of pains. I would love to share more about it if you’re interested. You can also learn more in the book “Self-Therapy: healing your inner child with IFS” by Jay Early. I also host a free IFS group Sunday’s at 3pm PST. Feel free to message me

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    1. I’ll take you up on that; It means a lot that you would reach out to me. Right now I’m feeling grateful that the conflict I experienced here isn’t an internal one anymore – but I still have room to heal and I know it.

      It has been a struggle for me to get to the point where I am at now. But God is faithful and the world is full of beautiful people. He’ll take care of everybody according to their desires, I just need to be at peace with that understanding; I believe God is. It didn’t work so marvelously for me because what someone else said or did, so thank God for His goodness.

      Thanks again for reaching out!

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